It's been a very long time since my last post and I apologize! Believe me when I say that since my last post there have been many a saved draft and many a deleted potential posting. I am finally just forcing myself to produce something before another week begins and I start to feel like I just don't have the time to write on this blog. Since work has begun, my life has definitely become a lot more structured in some ways, but a lot less involved in others. I wake up at around 6:45 every day to get ready for work and head into DC at around 7:45 on the Metro (always a joy during rush hour) and spend the day in DC reading, analyzing, busy bee-ing, and finding incredible ways to distract myself from accomplishing said tasks (this past week, eBay, the 24 Wiki, apple.com and any related articles on the iPhone 4). Needless to say by the time I get home I am utterly exhausted and sure to fall asleep quickly after netflixing some 24 or facebooking myself into the night. So sure; I live a fairly structured life, and the advantages of regularity are starting to develop, but unfortunately I find myself asking an all-too-familiar question: where is God in my day?
Certainly I am seeing a much more responsibly disciplined lifestyle in my day-to-day routine, but the pursuit of a grace-bound, God dependent, spiritual discipline seems to have been put on hold out of a seemingly too-busy schedule. I don't even stop to think about it on some days, but I have clearly not been as intentional about this search as I need to be now that things have clearly started underway; I am meeting obligations, but not pursing anything that I need only choose to do. The same issues and frustrations still happen when I find stillness and quiet, and some really great conversations with some even greater people point out the same holes in my life that I keep ignoring. The start of a new week, in my mind, promises a chance to try again, and an opportunity to appreciate the grace that makes all of this possible.
Good luck to everyone!
Brian
Sunday, June 13, 2010
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