Some places just breed creativity and thoughtfulness better than others. Fido is definitely one of them. Sure, I woke up an hour later than I had wanted to and probably need to study accordingly to make up for lost time (discipline...), but blogging here just seems so right...
Today is a beautiful day-after-flooding-storms sort of day***. A high of 81 degrees and sunshine everywhere, but today is also a day for work...I have to internalize more Econ than I currently know and then I have to get started on Math for Wednesday. In hindsight, taking two math courses was an awful idea and I'll be sure not to do that again any time soon. It'll be awesome to be able to focus myself and my energies in places other than classwork this summer. I can not wait for the first day I wake up at home and head out into Vienna to do some well-needed re-familiarization with my roots. I've come to accept the fact that Northern Virginia and I will be on pretty strange terms this summer; there is no denying that the South has left its mark on me. I'm wondering what sort of things will strike me as odd that I used to find completely normal in the complex world of 703 culture. It will definitely be hard not to judge the ignorance that comes with growing up in the Northern Virginia bubble and that's something I'll definitely have to work with.
On my search for discipline...
I will betroth you to Me forever;
Yes, I will betroth you to Me in righteousness and in justice,
In lovingkindness and in compassion,
And I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness.
Then you will know the LORD.
The book of Hosea paints a beautiful portrait of who we are and who God is in our relationship. We can only truly understand that God's love for us is astoundingly redeeming if we understand the extent to which we need to be redeemed, time and time again. We are always, like the nation of Israel, chasing after and attributing our blessings to the most illogical, unreasonable things. We try to ignore the fact that we are the property of a truly Awesome God and this allows us to think that we are our own and therefore we have no need to heed Him. Just like Hosea's wives we find ourselves in the most destitute of circumstances and when we are stripped of everything and filed with shame, God says something like this to us. That he will betroth us to Him forever, in His righteousness and in His justice, in His lovingkindness in His compassion, and in His faithfulness. It's amazing because we an do nothing nor can we bring anything to this relationship that He pursues with us. But in His redeeming love, he brings us all of these, because from us, they could mean nothing...
I think that for me to really feel a need for and a reason to stick to discipline in my life, I need to be "caught-up" in this truth. When I'm stuck on God's love, how can I even question God's sovereignty in my life? How can I not prioritize my life and live accordingly? I understand that we're fallible but surely the road starts there. It's time for me to passionately fall in love with True Love again.
From Fido,
Brian
***It's definitely hard to remember the reality of the storm that hit Nashville this weekend. People's lives were lost and currently the homeless population of the city is... homeless. Any possessions they had, everything that was by the river at tent city, is probably destroyed. It's hard to think about leaving Nashville so soon when there's so much work to be done, but it's also important to know you can't be a part of all of God's plans. Sometimes all you can do is pray, and trust that God will not leave His people. Who knows what can be done from home, anyways.
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